Exactly what I feel, but could never put into words...

1. A lifetime is a long time. My sister captures it brilliantly when she says "I can't promise to love someone for the rest of my life. I could look at them and tell them that I can't imagine a time in my life that I won't love them, but I'd never promise to love them always. I will grow (hopefully), they will grow (hopefully), and we may grow in opposite directions (hopefully not, but if it happens, I'd rather that we both had the freedom to leave)."
2. I like being a little different. People always give me funny looks when I tell them I don’t want to get remarried … like I’m a loveless, cynical freak. I kind of like getting people to think outside of their comfort zone (naturally, when they realize I’m full of love and optimism!).

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http://thoughtcatalog.com/candace-davis/2014/09/7-reasons-why-i-dont-want-to-get-married-again/

It's funny how you can think someone is good person and then realize maybe they have just years more time to practice their lying. 

It's been so long since I can truly say I am happy and that I see a future in my life. It's not about any one, it's about me and where I am finally at in my life. I see good things ahead. I am content with myself, I love my life. Yea, there are things going on I don't, but I can't complain. It is good! So please...

Silly little girl. When will you learn.