You wondered how you'd make it through. I wondered what was wrong with you. Because how could you give your love to someone else, yet share your dreams with me? Sometimes the only thing you're looking for, is the one thing you can't see.

I thought when love for you died, I should die.

It's dead.

Alone, most strangely, I live on.

~Rupert Brooke

Your trust is something very few people you met in life will actually deserve, but the ones you can trust are worth hanging on to.

I learned a lot last week. Some I wish I didn't have to, but about myself I learned a lot of good things. I am stronger than I thought I was. My attitudes are not determined by others. I have a very generous heart. I believe that humans fail and expect it of them, not in a bad way, but in a way that makes me able to understand the mistakes of others. I know I deserve better and I plan to endeavor to find that better. I learned to not look into the future. Let what comes comes, and just enjoy the simple things of life. Family is always going to support you. I am happy. I should be devastated and right now I should hate men, but I am not. I am looking with hope to the future and finding joy in unexpected places. Thanks for being there for me.

He may love you with his whole heart, just remember, his dick is not connected to his heart.

I don't think I can take much more.

Vague sound of rain

pierces through my song again

but I get distracted by the way his toes move when he plays

so I let it burn

I just poured my heart out

there's bits of it on the floor

And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water

And call him up for more

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely

And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me

And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry

so sorry

I'm sorry

so sorry

He grabs my wrists

as my fingers turn into angry fists

and I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you

I'll play the part