Wednesday, December 23, 2009


If you could ask for anything what would it be?

You're doing it again. You said you would stop, but I see you can't help yourself. I am not enough for you and that hurts.

Monday, December 14, 2009


It must be nice to be in love. When I hear someone say they are it brings a smile to my face. Such a simple joy.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

The Young Victoria



A really nice movie. Makes you wish love like this existed today.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Sunday, December 6, 2009


Tell me not to worry and for some reason I worry more. It's as if by you saying it I feel there is reason to worry.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

The last four days have been some of the best of my life.
Thank you!

Thursday, November 26, 2009


I love the idea of loving you.

Are we born jealous or do we become by having our trust abused again and again?!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Can you be in a relationship and still be lonely?

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Pretty words - bullshit



Have you ever noticed that it's the people who say the nicest things; often do the least?! It's so easy to say things, but the actions to back up those pretty speeches seem to be a lot harder to come by.

Monday, November 16, 2009

It's funny how emotions can jump from one day to the next.
One minute I am so fond of you I think I could love you
and the next I feel like strangling you.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


And we danced too wild, and we sang too long, and we hugged too hard, and we kissed too sweet, and threw our heads and howled just as loud as we wanted to howl, because by now we were all old enough to know that what looks like crazy on an ordinary day, looks a lot like love if you catch it in the moonlight.
— Pearl Cleage

Love this song...



...reminds me of Turkey and my best friend. Miss you!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I'm enjoying being with you!



Thursday, October 22, 2009

Incase of Anaconda attack...

The following is from the US Government Peace Corps Manual for its volunteers who work in the Amazon Jungle. It tells what to do in case an anaconda attacks you. An anaconda is the largest snake in the world. It is a relative of the boa constrictor, it grows to thirty-five feet in length and weighs between three and four hundred pounds at the maximum. This is what the manual said:
1. If you are attacked by an anaconda, do not run. The snake is faster than you are.
2. Lie flat on the ground. Put your arms tight against your sides, your legs tight against one another
3. Tuck your chin in.
4. The snake will come and begin to nudge and climb over your body.
5. Do not panic
6. After the snake has examined you, it will begin to swallow you from the feet and - always from the end. Permit the snake to swallow your feet and ankles. Do not panic
7. The snake will now begin to suck your legs into its body. You must lie perfectly still. This will take a long time.
8. When the snake has reached your knees slowly and with as little movement as possible, reach down, take your knife and very gently slide it into the side of the snake's mouth between the edge of its mouth and your leg, then suddenly rip upwards, severing the snake's head.
9. Be sure you have your knife.
10. Be sure your knife is sharp.

The cure for blues....shopping! But what do you do when you return home with your pile of shoes and the blues return?

You Learn...


After awhile you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn’t mean possession
and company doesn’t mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises and you begin to accept
your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
burns if you get too much so you plant your
own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn…
Veronica A. Shoffstall

Monday, October 12, 2009


There is almost nothing worse then a sleepless night with your mind going nonstop.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

No Knights...


It's sad the day you wake up and realize there is no knight in shining armor. That fairy tales are just that; fairy tales. That all the dreams of childhood are just dreams. To bad we must wake from the dream.

Friday, October 9, 2009



It's the little things that really get under your skin and bother you. Knowing someone is online, but they don't chat with you, or you call and they don't answer. The way they say a certain thing; the things they don't say.
It's so easy to blowing things up in your mind and make more out of them then there is, but at the same time, how to know that those things though small are important and do mean more?!
Trying to be rational here...failing I fear!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Dreaming of you....


I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long.
If we're in each other's dreams, we can play together all night.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009


Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them.
~Jennifer James

Thursday, September 24, 2009


There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009


It's good to know we are not on the same page...not even remotely close!
I know it's not a good thing, but I can't help that I am going out of my mine with boredom!!! How do other mothers handle motherhood. Any tips?!

Distance...

...not a good thing!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Thursday, September 10, 2009


Lust is easy. Love is hard. Like is most important.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Things I Miss When You're Not Here...


I miss the little things:
You staring at me...even though it annoys me.
Laughing at you and with you. :)
Listening to you talk.
Touching you and being touched.
Just being near you
Watching you secretly ;)
I miss your lips!

I miss the big things too, but you know what those are!
xxx


Thursday, August 20, 2009

So many words to say and no idea how to say them. So many feelings, thoughts...
I am happier than I have been in a long time, yet more scare then I care to admit.
Wanting to throw myself in, yet holding back...
Wishing I was able to express myself better and at the same time thinking it's a lot safer to say nothing.
Thinking far to much, but unable to stop.
It's like find a door to a secret garden and each day you walk in and explore a little more. You never know what you will find around the next corner and it's exciting and fun, but scary and nerve racking at the same time.
Good thing you are better at this then me!


Friday, August 14, 2009

Love yourself.


“There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:
This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.
When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.”

Stacey Charter

Thursday, July 30, 2009

" The smart way to keep people passive and obedient is to strictly limit the spectrum of acceptable opinion, but allow very lively debate within that spectrum - even encourage the more critical and dissident views. That gives people the sense that there's free thinking going on, while all the time the presuppositions of the system are being reinforced by the limits put on the range of the debate. "
-- Noam Chomsky, American linguist and US media and foreign policy critic

Friday, July 24, 2009


They only thing to do with a ruined Friday night....get wasted!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

If you want a good storybook for your brothers and sisters or kids I recomend "The Ordinary Princess," as well as, the Dave Barry and Ridley Pearson series. My little bro hasn't stopped listen to either since I downloaded the audiobook versions for him.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

My Love...


No one tells you how completely motherhood will envelope you. How much you will love one little soul and be ready to die for them. Someone dropped my son and my heart broke. He means everything to me & all I can think is "I am a terrible mother for letting this happen." I haven't cried so hard in a long time.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

New stage in life...stepping out. See how it goes. New beginnings are always scary; yet exhilarating. I wonder how this one will go?...

Saturday, June 13, 2009


It's hard to keep trusting men sometimes...
this is a good quote. :P


You must not lose faith in humanity.
Humanity is an ocean;
if a few drops of the ocean are dirty,
the ocean does not become dirty.

Mohandas K. Gandhi

Friday, June 12, 2009


“We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love."

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Saturday, June 6, 2009


"I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time."

Jack London

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Wednesday, June 3, 2009


To sit patiently with a yearning that has not yet been fulfilled, and to trust that, that fulfillment will come, is quite possibly one of the most powerful "magic skills" that human beings are capable of. It has been noted by almost every ancient wisdom tradition. The inability to open up to hope is what blocks trust, and blocked trust is the reason for blighted dreams.
Elizabeth Gilbert

Friday, May 29, 2009


I should never talk to you again. You only make me miserable!

Thursday, May 21, 2009


Sometimes you just need somebody.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Monday, May 18, 2009



Alas! I love my own destruction
And nurse a fire within my breast
Which will soon consume me
I am well aware of my own perdition
Because I have dared to love
What I should have only worshiped

Philip Christoph count of Königsmark

Sunday, May 17, 2009



I know I missed the boat called perfection
but my errors are portals of discovery
and there are times
when a little madness sets me free.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Adrian

3 days old
2 days old




Day 1
2 days before birth

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

"To Sleep"

A flock of sheep that leisurely pass by
One after one; the sound of rain, and bees
Murmuring; the fall of rivers, winds and seas,

Smooth fields, white sheets of water, and pure sky -

I've thought of all by turns,
and still I lie
Sleepless...
~William Wordsworth

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Only Human

It's funny when you try for a change to do the right thing, everyone thinks your doing the wrong thing. It's always interesting to find out how people you thought liked you, view you.
From a few conversations, from watching you, people so quickly think they know you or can say how you will react in a completely different situation.
I hope I don't judge people like this too. It hurts to be so misunderstood & unable to explain yourself.

I can only be who I am! Sorry that's not good enough for you.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Monday, April 13, 2009

How quickly things change. How fast feelings fade. How stupid people can be. What chances we take. Life...never ceases to amaze me!

I had a guy make the most stupid proposition I have ever had made to me in my life. I am sure men think these things, but that he had the balls to ask me I couldn't believe. Even other guys I told were shocked. Hum, how do I find these special men....

He should take this bit of advise....well, the last part. RUN!