I'm still human

Just because I seems so unemotional & unaffectionate doesn't mean I have no feelings. Treat me like I don't existent & my heart, sorry it's not a rock yet; but getting there, does feel some pain.

M.C.

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http://zemotion.deviantart.com/art/Remembrance-75082247

First and Second Day...

Strange and Beautiful...

AquaLung....

Quiet Desperation....

Wipe my eyes & just walk on...
Hating life wishing for death...
Seeing no point, no end in sight
Living just for the sake of living.
How long can this go on for....
So many around me none of them knowing the state of my mind the place I am go
People think I am quiet & so I am but it's only because I can't show you what's inside me
My mind is constantly racing...
There is no one to help me in this time
I have no one I can turn to who will understand...
They all have there opinion, but it is one sided...
They all love Him and I...
I DON'T!
This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through in my life & I am the most friendless I have ever been.


Please do not respond or comment on this post...
My blog was never intend for people to analyze or try to help me...
It's where I say what I think!

M.C.

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http://thymournia.deviantart.com/art/Desperation-59884960

Rant

Men drive me crazy....and not in a good way. I never ever say things I don't mean & I am very careful about what I say to guys so there are no misunderstandings. I always manage to be with guys who love to say nice things...make you think they like you, but then ignore you after saying them or don't call...in general just fuck with your head. I think it's unfair to say things like "Do you want to be with me?" or any such things & then never call or not respond when I call. I don't care if you don't want to be with me, but don't say things you don't mean because I will hold you to them. I am fine with just being friends & having casual sex. I don't need sweet words, I don't want promises for the future. I am content with the present. I have enough problems as it is without having fuck heads fucking with me! Excuse the language or don't!


Art by:
http://rdsullivan.deviantart.com/art/Pissed-Off-24612491

???

I realize that I don't have much of an opinion on things when I hear people make decisions without me, that effect me, and yet when I ask why I wasn't included they tell me they knew I would have no opinion either way.

Art By:
http://emayda.deviantart.com/art/Libra-43352735

I've Been Waiting...

“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.”
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Photo by:
http://create-destroy.deviantart.com/art/Escaping-Darkness-76404663

Back Home

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http://freaky665.deviantart.com/art/The-path-that-I-m-walking-101463709

Mountains

Leaving tonight, well tomorrow morning at 3:20...and so begins my trip to the mountains. It will be a first for me, going with a whole bunch of people I barely know. I am doing the unexpected...I hope it turns out. :)

I knew it wouldn't work!

Art by Shiro 17 Japan

“If ye love wealth greater than liberty, the tranquility of servitude greater than the animating contest for freedom, go home from us in peace. We seek not your counsel nor your arms. Crouch down and lick the hand that feeds you; May your chains set lightly upon you, and may posterity forget that ye were our countrymen.”

--Samuel Adams

"You are a den of vipers. I intend to rout you out and by the Eternal God I will rout you out. If the people only understood the rank injustice of our money and banking system, there would be a revolution before morning."

--Andrew Jackson, 1828 (to a group of investment bankers trying to persuade him to renew their charter)

To read more on this topic:

http://wakeupfromyourslumber.blogspot.com/2006/02/asking-vampires-to-donate-blood.html

Stop my dreaming...when they are all of you!

Somedays there just are no words...

Art by:
http://azurylipfe.deviantart.com/art/Without-words-44525676

And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:7