I give much more than I ever ask for...

I don't wanna be adored
Don't wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved
No, don't wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
I give much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
Warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way
To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for

Waiting for better day...

What a sad world we live in. A world in which you get mowed down simply for being the wrong spot at the wrong time. Where has the value of human life gone? How can we be so unconcerned about the fate of others. When did we allow the kill of thousands for gain on a daily bases to becomes so common to use that we no longer feel any pain or sorrow? I try not to read the news, because all it does is depress me, but it's like being an ostrich. I don't wanna just hide & pretend it will all go away. I know it won't & sadly I know it will only get worse. Why, of all the paths set before us, must we always chose the paths that, in the end, cause the most pain & suffering. Man will never learn from history & yet they say we are getting smarter. If this is the smarter I'd rather be simple.
1Corinthians:
26 For ye see your calling, brethren, how that not many wise men after the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called:
27 But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;
28 And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are:
29 That no flesh should glory in his presence.

Why wasn't I told?!

My Parents

A friend recently told me "I believe in life we are each given certain gifts. One of your gifts is your parents."
He is a very wise man!!!
Through all my tough times, no matter what crazy ---- I have throw at them, they have always been there for me & supported me.
I recently handed them something that could have been the finally throw, but no after a few moments of totally shocked surprise, they were 100 percent behind me again.
This wise man also told me "There are only 2 forms of pure love in this world. The love of your parents & the love of a child."
I have been very lucky in the first!!!
Love you Dad & Mom. I couldn't make it without you both.

Why I love them!!!

Wish I could skip ahead...I need to see!

Jesus: A calendar is often used to help remind you of special events or happenings, important appointments, and can even be used as a basic master plan of happenings in your life. I have a specialized calendar for you alone, and I’m filling in the squares not only with My plan and timetable, but also with the answers to the secret desires of your heart. The calendar of your life is full of unique, memorable, and life-changing events. There’s not a day that I haven’t planned to perfection.

I know that you sometimes wonder about some of the events that I have planned in your life, or that I have planned in the lives of others around you. You wonder if these were truly good things, or whether I overbooked or overlooked some pivotal details. But, My love, I do have a reason for all that I do, although there will be many things that you’ll need to wrap up in a bundle of faith and trust.

So if your current month seems gray and bleak, if I were to skip ahead to the future and show you what is planned, you would clearly see that these seemingly dark and difficult days lead up to bright, warm, sunny days, and that what you will gain through it all will be priceless.

So don’t be afraid of letting Me plan and fill in the calendar of your life. The best things happen to those who trust Me completely, and who happily flow with what I have planned.

“If only you knew he loved you, you could face the uncertainty of whether you love him.”


“Uncertainty and mystery are energies of life. Don't let them scare you unduly, for they keep boredom at bay and spark creativity.”
R. I. Fitzhenry

I could have loved you once
And said it
But then you went away
And when you came back
Love was a forgotten word,
Remember?

-- Marilyn Monroe.

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http://aixado.deviantart.com/art/Pudor-104023157

Me to the T...

"Are you, by any chance, angry with me?" he asked.
"Nope. Never for long. Frequently puzzled. I'm well endowed with confusion, badly off for anger."she replied.

...never angry for long, but confused and puzzled long after.
Just explain; if you can.

By:
http://etoil3.deviantart.com/art/Puzzled-55669224

Who says it was a mistake after all?!

So, I made a mistake...I think I have done enough self reproaching, self hating & plane old freaking out. Time to accept it, be happy & move on. Who cares what anyone else thinks or feels about it. It's my life & I shall not let others ruin it. I embrace this change & shall look forward to a new experience! God give me the grace!


Art by:
http://pspmistress.deviantart.com/art/Step-Forward-Take-Courage-11107203

I don't want to walking into the future. I am scared of it.

I don't want to stay where I am, because I am too unhappy.

They say entertaintment means "away from thinking; diverting the mind"....

I am living off entertainment. I don't want to think.

If I start thinking I'll never stop crying.

M.C.

Photo by:
http://orevivre.deviantart.com/art/stop-crying-stop-thinking-102550866

I need you...

Photo by:
http://vixrayne.deviantart.com/art/I-need-you-70647769

Fragile

Men say women are complicated. I find men extremely complicated. I never know where I stand with them or what they will throw at me next.

At least, I know what you want right now. :)

Photo by:
http://atreja.deviantart.com/art/Girl-at-the-window-29935706

“When sadness comes, just sit by the side and look at it and say, “I am the watcher, I am not sadness,” and see the difference. Immediately you have cut the very root of sadness. It is no more nourished. It will die of starvation. We feed these emotions by being identified with them.” Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

Art by:
http://roadioarts.deviantart.com/art/The-watcher-92725349

I was told I was cold...H. Longfellow knows it's not so.

“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.”

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Art by:
http://sugargrl14.deviantart.com/art/Uprooted-103418085

8 P

Sometimes all I need to cheer me up is....

a picture of a hot man, half naked!

Photo by:
http://mehmeturgut.deviantart.com/art/efor-II-102588871

Coincidence

By Zig Ziglar, Creators Syndicate, November 2008

May 11, 1996, was a day of tragedy for many people. Domingo Pacheco was rushing to catch a flight out of Miami when the left-rear tire of his car blew out on the expressway. For more than an hour, he sweated under the hot Florida sun as he struggled to change the tire. When he finally finished the job, with the soot from the tire still clinging to his hands, he answered a call on his cell phone.

His mother was calling him, and she was overjoyed to hear his voice. Domingo, however, wasn't in such a good mood. He explained to his mother how a flat had caused him to miss his flight. At that point, she shouted: "Turn on your radio! The plane you were going to be on just crashed in the Everglades! I'm glad you had a flat!" Domingo Pacheco should have been aboard ValuJet Flight 592, but a flat tire saved his life.

The question is: Should he have been on the flight? The answer is, obviously, no. Was it one of those strange "coincidences" of life? That is, was it a coincidence, which some people describe as God's way of remaining anonymous, or was it simply that his angel was looking after him?

Most of us don't get too excited about flat tires or, for that matter, problems of any kind. It seems they always come at the wrong time and complicate our lives. But just as Domingo's flat, or "problem," was a lifesaver, who knows what the positive benefits might be when unexpected problems and difficulties are encountered?

The next time something unexpected happens to you, pause for a moment and ask yourself: "Is it really that bad, or is there a chance that what's happened might, in the long run, be the best thing that's happened to me in a long time?" Think about it. Take the optimistic outlook!

Hotdog anyone?

I need help...please do something. Send me something. Show me clearly.
I don't know what to do anymore. I can't keep going on like this.
Help me!

Art by:
http://sugargrl14.deviantart.com/art/Forest-Fae-102770662

Bex

It was my sisters' birthday yesterday.
Not really good with the whole expressing of feelings, but you know I love you & you have tried to be there for me as much as I would let you. I pray that He gives you something really special this year, because I do know how much you give up everyday for Him. You deserve the best & I hope you find that!

You asked me if I would miss you. I told you I would.
I am surprised how much I miss you.
I just want to hear you talk, see you smile, your laugh, your confidence swagger as you walk naked around the room.

Time will take away the missing...till then your in my mind.

M.C.


Photo by:
http://don-paolo.deviantart.com/art/don-t-miss-you-at-all-33368065

Why I don't vote...there is no good choice.

Election Day

We stand today at a crossroads:
One path leads to despair and utter hopelessness.
The other leads to total extinction.
Let us hope we have the wisdom to make the right choice."
-- Woody Allen

I still haven't found my home...

...but I want to go to it.

Tears are the words my heart
uses to explain when even my
fake smiles can't cover up my pain.

http://numb-insane-rebel.deviantart.com/art/Smiles-hide-my-tears-36185271

Who ever said that misery loved company? Her misery did not love company. Her misery loved to be alone. Her misery threatened to bludgeon company.
–Francine Pascal, Fearless

Someday, god knows when, I will stop this absurd, self-pitying, idle, futile despair. I will begin to think again, and to act according to the way I think.

I am still undecided. I just don't see how this will all end, work out. It's so hard not knowing.

Waiting for you!

There are very few mistakes in life that can't be correct...if you've got the guts.

My New Baby

I finally bought a phone...first time in my life!
Took me weeks to decide what to get & then days to get it.

Tonight, There Is No One

No one feels close to the heart tonight.
Away from sight many magical lands call.
Dream after dream, palaces with open hands call.
But they are desolate inside.
No one feels close to the heart tonight.

Some song, some scent, some unbelievably pretty face.
Some passing promise, a hope's fleeting trace.
Gloomy memory, a sigh, faith, faithless plight
Nothing!
No one feels close to the heart tonight.

If your memory is with me, then whether you are near or far
Every moment, my wailing heart's shadow weaver you are
And if not, then no where, no one in sight.
No one feels close to the heart tonight.

As evening blurs into the night, my loneliness
sinks into my heart like a dead weight.
Lo! the moon rises with your remembrance.
Life feels friendly, compassionate.

If there is anything we have with us it's only this: the longings for some beloved, this agonizing bliss. In hopes of a rising sun, since a lifetime we have waited by a late-night candle flame's hiss.

Faiz Ahmed Faiz

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http://azurylipfe.deviantart.com/art/Lost-Love-31468021